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Does Evil exists?
8 Dec 2018 | Comment

Evil by definition means an act or thought that is deemed wicked and immoral. For many inhabitants of the Earth, they believe that there is God and Satan. That there is Heaven and Hell. That there are Angels and Demons. That there is Good and Evil. But as our human thinking have evolved and continue to evolve, we have begin to realize that it is not always black and white. That gender is not always binary, that a religion is itself a spectrum of beliefs and interpretations on its own, and so is everything else for that matter. Good and Evil too have many grey, overlapping, neutral areas. 

If we look at back at the origins of Evil from the Bible, we see that a Lucifer was a mighty angel, who in his beauty and splendor, was overcome by pride and desired to raise his throne above God's. He was judged by God and cast down to an abyss but the heavens remained opened for him to regain an entry ticket. The fall of Satan is thought to be the beginning of evil in the world where mankind lived. But over the millennia and centuries that have passed since the Creation, we see Satan continue to be a rebel and never desired to reconcile back with God. In this context alone, there can be two dominant beliefs; if you continue to remain in your own pride you will never rise above the ranks to be closer to God. But then Satan, like men, had freewill and yet he was judged for his actions.Was God being just or was He drastic in His actions to excommunicate Satan because he couldn't take a little challenge? This is not the first time that we see God just act out in a whim. He also causes the flood and selects only a handful of people in the story of Noah and so is seen in the book of Exodus when diseases and plague befall a large nation with only a few people chosen to escape the misery. Many innocent women and children perish and face the same fate.

So the question arises then, if God is omniscient(all-knowing), and yet chooses to do something that is deemed as evil and cruel by a large many people, does that mean that Evil is not only a human thing but a trait that is simply ubiquitous and evident in heavenly beings and all across the universe? Perhaps evil can be likened to emotions. We humans experience emotions. So does God. God can be pleased and He can be angered. What if Evil is just another triggered-emotion? Only that it is often realized with some unpleasant actions. But so can be said about the simple manifestation of deep-seethed anger such as crashing a glass bowl to the floor or swinging one's fist into the air. Except that the former is often unpleasant, undesired and shunned to a greater degree than the latter. Perhaps Evil is just another innate quality in both God and man.

Deviating a little towards the story of mankind in the book of Genesis, we see that Adam and Eve are tempted into eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, hence leading to what is known as original sin and consequently the fall of man. As a result, Adam and Eve become mortals and are banished from the Garden of Eden due to their disobedience to God. This boils back down to the omniscient God that we know of. If He was all-knowing, He would know what was to become of Adam and Eve with the planting of the Tree of Knowledge in the Garden. Did God intentionally choose to tempt the first two humans he had created? Was it deliberate entrapment? If so, who then was the real cause of Evil?

Shifting our focus to the real world, we see that Evil is often a time a result of selfish priorities to achieve political agendas such as the case with tyrannical leaders, or simply to revenge or avenge something that has been taken away from one such as the case in murdering someone who was the direct or indirect cause of the death of someone that was held dear. Sometimes, Evil can also result in the name of fighting for something one believes in. Such as the case of religious radicals who kill under the banner of religion. All these sort of Evil are justified in the viewpoint of the perpetrator and those who believe in the act of that perpetrator. Of course, there isn't always many valid arguments to defend these acts as these acts are seen as brash and simply irrational. And as crazy and unjustified as these acts may seem to the general public and in the eyes of the law, the perpetrator would in most instances think that they were right in their doings. This then opens up an argument for the case that evil is morally subjective. Take for example, capital punishment.  Some view it as a definite means to eradicate evil-doing such as murder. But in the eyes of some people, they believe that capital punishment is inhumane and that no one, not even the law has the right to take another person's life.

 On a slightly lighter tone, we can see these forms of subjective morality in our favorite Disney villains. One such example is Yzma from The Emperor's New Groove. Kuzco was not a benevolent ruler. He even threw an old man off his window because the old man "threw off" his groove. And Kuzco in his selfish pursuits intends to build a vacation house on top of a village hill, forcing the evacuation of many villagers. Yzma's just another lady in the workplace seeing a man doing a job he didn't earn that she's sure she can do better. Did ambition get the best of her? Yes. But give her this at least: is her brand of intentional tyranny really worse than Kuzco's callous neglect? Take the story of Cinderella for another example. While the Stepmother can be said to be abusive and unfair at times, other times she is just doing everything she can to look after herself and her kids in a society where the odds are stacked against women. She's married for money, and it seems to be working out for her, so no wonder she's energetically shoving her not-aesthetically-blessed daughters into the Prince's path while doing everything she can to keep the more photogenic blonde stepdaughter from going to the ball.

 So if evil is evil to some people and not evil to some other people, can evil said to be evil and not evil at the same time? The Law of Contradiction by Aristotle states that for an example quality A, nothing can both have the quality of A and lack the quality of A at the same time. This law also applies to certain subatomic behavior. An electron behaves in one of two ways: as a particle or as a wave. when it is seen as a particle, it has all of characteristics of being a particle and none of being a wave. When it is seen as a wave, it has all of characteristics of being a wave and none of being a particle. However, it cannot both possess and lack the quality of being a particle at the same time. Same goes for the paradox of Schrödinger's Cat where the cat in the box is 'forced' to be either dead or alive but not both, depending on the viewer and the time of the viewing. Similarly, in the context of Evil, whether or not evil is evil depends upon a person grasping it.

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How I got from where I was to where I am now
25 Nov 2018 | Comment

Some of you might have noticed my long hiatus recently. For a brief period of time, I found myself embarking on a journey of self-discovery. Since then and for a time-being, I had shied away from social media and this blog of mine. 

I have always been aware of the girl that I was. She has always been that same girl I knew. Shy and afraid to speak her thoughts. Elaborate in her words but never got straight to the point. Hanging her head low in utter low self-confidence. Breaking down at the thought of her past. Holding back tears and numbing the pain in her heart.

 Then as sudden as the movement of Earth's tectonic plates😱, something inside me was changing, albeit after some self-reflection, I know for a fact that this was a gradual change attributed to many factors around me. I see myself now as a more confident woman, who's ready to put her past behind and walk ahead of it, envisioning her future and making wiser decisions. I am able to lead, speak my thoughts confidently and more coherently, and am now more capable to adapt and foster new connections.

I am not only more bold in the outside but also in the inside. I am now able to filter my thoughts more systematically, able to make decisions faster, able to engage in conversations that challenge my own set of beliefs and able to ultimately tear down my wall of ego. I am also able to approach a sensitive topic with a softer touch and with more empathy while not compromising on logic. More importantly, I am able now more than ever, to accept my failures and move on without harboring self-hatred. I am no longer fully occupied about what people are thinking of me and am more resistant to negative hearsay. Additionally, I am more flexible to take on new challenges and venture into a myriad of things I have never tried before. 

So what caused this major paradigm shift?🤔 And what happened during the brief period of time that I had taken off from social media? Well for the record I was a little preoccupied about studies and club activities too during this time, hence the hiatus. And also for the record, I don't think I want to get back to being active in social media. You'll know why if you've once taken a break from those apps. You are more productive and you will also begin to realize how insignificant yours and other people's stories are to one another. I could go on but this is a rambling for another day.

I can't pin an exact time and date when all of this began. But I do know that after my father's passing, I had become particularly ardent about my agenda of self-improvement. I begin listening to many podcasts on general knowledge, reading books and spending a lot of time on Medium, where I obtained my daily dose of motivation to up my game in programming. I was not completely a nerd too. I binged on a lot of music and countless hours on Netflix watching my favorite TV shows. And I exercised and jogged 2-3 times a week. I took care of my acne-prone face, wore a thin layer of foundation when I went outside and was particular of what I included in my diet. I learnt that these small things really do add up to a cumulative effect on my confidence and general well-being. Like the classic saying, "Look good, feel good"👩‍. I also have to attribute most of this positive outcome to a few close friends who have never failed to believe in me, uplift me and inspire me to be my best.

There are however several other things that I have time and time again failed to improve on 😅. I have yet to set right my sleeping pattern. I consider myself a night owl and a late riser. The problem arises when everyone else is up and bustling and I'm still snoozing the alarm, leading to productivity issues. Also, my classes are in the morning. And sometimes I can only picture myself squeezing some lemon juice into my eyes because I yearn so much to stay awake and focus in class. Moreover I have to work on my consistency and discipline in making practice a habit and routine. Practice for my guitar, practice saving money, practice in programming, practice writing, etc.

I wish to continue to work on my shortcomings and besides what is life without a personal agenda of self-improvement every day. On a side note, it definitely feels great to be back to my online abode❤️.

My upcoming posts:
🔸 Your life when you were 5-7 years old shapes your future self
🔸 My stance on religion


Dear Evan
23 Jul 2018 | Comment

Dear Evan,

Now is the age for you to grow and blossom to your highest potential. Work towards your goals, achieve them, create new ones, repeat. Build your resume with experiences and new-found skills. Know that time is of the essence. Feign from relationships at the moment. There will come a time for that. You're not sure yet about what you want. And that means you're not ready for one.
Don't try to be someone you're not. A life of seeking to please others is not a life well lived. Live for yourself. Be your unique self. Embrace each good quality that you have and nurture it. Build upon it more qualities that could be worthwhile.

Do all of these while
Family and friends are at your disposal,
Plenty of resources are at your disposal,
Time is at your disposal,
And opportunities are at your disposal.

So don't get too swept away by the notion of love and trying to please others. Instead focus on building your knowledge and skills repository and work towards securing an exciting and promising career path.

There will come a time where
Time is all you need,
And therefore you spend more days alone trying to finish up things,
And wisdom is at your disposal,
And maturity,
And you seek for a company to share your life with,
Then and only then, you seek out for love.
Your sincere self,



Hi, I'm Evan and I maintain this blog with my occasional musings. Apart from writing, I like being occupied with anything artsy, I enjoy the company of books and I like unleashing my inner nerd through occasional coding. My ideal day would be holding a book in one hand, matcha in the other, ears plugged and a cat purring on my lap.